这恐怕是我至今为止做过最疯狂的事情，从有这个想法到完全预订机票旅店完成4个小时搞定。也许真如碧瑶所说，我压抑得太久了，患得患失、左思右想，从来没有把一件事情彻彻底底清理干净过，就算过去了，已经毫无意义了，或者我已经重新证明过自己，可是以前的刺仍然在我要前进的时候出来提醒我、刺激我、绊住我。我时常问自己是命运安排每到还是我根本就不够努力，三年的生活中规中矩，我从来没有决绝的下过决定，想着想那，怕这怕那，而这次，就算只是小小的决定，我也要为自己而活。

上去哪儿选了往返最合算的机票，对，我就要出发，什么地方无所谓。我要回来之后一切都不一样，我要重新奋斗，挫折算什么，况且那些只是心魔。人生没有什么大不了的，只要认真活过，得不到又如何，若是想什么就得到又岂不是嚼之无味。

所以，厦门，我来了。

     当初看《the holiday》就被kate winslet劝jack black这段感动得不行，到底要到什么样的程度才能想通成这样。今天在某站上看见这段台词，搬来这里以资留念。

     I understand feeling as small
　　and as insignificant as humanly possible,
　　and how it can actually ache in places
　　that you didn't know you had inside you,
　　and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get
　　or gyms you join
　　or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends,
　　you still go to bed every night going over every detail,
　　and wonder what you did wrong
　　or how you could have misunderstood.
　　And how in the hell, for that brief moment,
　　you could think that you were that happy?
　　...
　　And after all that,
　　however long all that may be,
　　you'll go somewhere new
　　and you'll meet people
　　who make you feel worthwhile again,
　　and little pieces of your soul will finally come back.
　　And all that fuzzy stuff,
　　those years of your life that you wasted,
　　that will eventually begin to fade.

纵然生活有诸多不想承认的现实，已经限定好的命运，已经犯下的过错，就算从来不被认可，从来不被正视，他们仍能清教徒一样生活着，游离在边缘却比谁都坚定。所以无论如何都不应该辜负由此给予的内心的巨大力量，应凭此而充满希望地走下去。